The Conflagration of the Closed Set
Grant Dev for Jay Westing
Pronouns: He/Him
Age: 40s
You’re an actor whose fifteen minutes of fame are nearly up, and you’re hoping to reset the timer by taking the lead in this movie. This isn’t the first time things hadn’t looked up for you, but you’ve got a knack for avoiding trouble just before it actually hits.
Who We’re Looking For
An Asian actor or actress who can communicate the lies Jay tells himself— he’s a coward, through and through, even when he frames it as “avoiding trouble”.
- male adult
Don't turn away. You're a man, aren't you, and surely I'm not a fright as all that! Everyone says I've lovely hair and after all, a man killed himself on my account. You have to look at something, and there's nothing here to see except the sofas and that awful ornament and the table. Surely I'm better to look at that lot of stupid furniture. Listen! I've dropped out of their heart like a little sparrow fallen from its nest. So gather me up, dear, fold me to your heart--and you'll see how nice I can be.
There...You know the way the catch larks-- with a mirror? I'm your lark-mirror, my dear, and you can't escape me...There isn't any pimple, not a trace of one. So what about it? Suppose the mirror started telling lies? Or suppose I covered my eyes--as he is doing-- and refused to look at you, all that loveliness of yours would be wasted on the desert air. No, don't be afraid, I can't help looking at you. I shan't turn my eyes away. And I'll be nice to you, ever so nice. Only you must be nice to me, too.
Listen! Each man has an aim in life, a leading motive; that's so, isn't it? Well, I didn't give a damn for wealth, or for love. I aimed at being a real man. A tough, as they say. I staked everything on the same horse... Can one possibly be a coward when one's deliberately courted danger at every turn? And can judge a life by a single action? I "dreamt," you say. It was no dream. When I chose the hardest path, I made my choice deliberately. A man is what he wills himself to be. But I died too soon. I wasn't allowed time to--to do my deeds.