On the Road (Supernatural- Genderswapped)
AshleeVO for Deanna 'Dea' Winchester
Deanna is a tough, hardcore girl. Deanna is shown to be understanding at times, kind, funny, mischievous, and, in contrast to her younger sister, a little immature. At an early age, Deanna was trained by her father, John Winchester, to hunt and kill creatures of the supernatural. However, unlike her sister Samantha, she did not resent his father for having her "raised like a warrior." She seemed to prefer hunting the supernatural over any normal "apple pie" life. However, by Season 7, following all that she has seen and done, Deanna admits to Eliot Ness that she no longer wants to be a hunter and would give it up if he could.
Deana is an avid fan of classic rock music. Many of her aliases have included the names of famous rock musicians. She is known to use crude humour, make sexual innuendos and indulge in pornography.
This first line is from the Season 2 finale, All Hell Breaks Loose Part 2. Deanna just watched her sister die, practically in her arms, and she's talking to Samantha's body that has been placed in an empty werehouse.
DEANA You know, when we were little— and you couldn't been more than 5— you just started asking questions. How come we didn't have a mom? Why do we always have to move around? Where'd Dad go when he'd take off for days at a time? I remember I begged you, "Quit asking, Sammy. I mean, you don't want to know."
I just wanted you to be a kid... Just for a little while longer. I always tried to protect you... Keep you safe... Dad didn't even have to tell me. It was just always my responsibility, you know? It's like I had one job... I had one job...
And I screwed it up. I blew it. And for that, I'm sorry.
I guess that's what I do. I let down the people I love. I let Dad down. And now I guess I'm just supposed to let you down, too.
How can I? How am I supposed to live with that?
What am I supposed to do? Sammy. God.
What am I supposed to do?
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! (yelling)
(Remember-- EMOTION IS KEY!!)
Line 2 comes from the episode, Dream a Little Dream of Me, where Deanna is confronted by a demonic version of herself, telling her that she deserves to go to hell after she sold her soul to bring Samantha back to life after the events of All Hell Breaks Loose. This all takes place in a nightmare/dream state world, which is why these events are happening. I know it's hard, but try to master talking to yourself with two diffrent personalities. Although there is two different Deannas, it is much like talking to yourself.
DREAM DEANNA
Hey, Deanna.
DEANNA
Well, aren't you a beautiful son of a gun.
DREAM DEANNA
We need to talk.
DEANNA
I get it. I get it. I'm my own worst nightmare, is that it? Huh? Kind of like the Superman III junkyard scene? A little mano y mano with myself?
DREAM DEANNA
Joke all you want, smart-ass. But you can't lie to me. I know the truth.
DREAM DEANNA
I know how dead you are inside. How worthless you feel. I know how you look into a mirror... and hate what you see.
DEANNA
Sorry, pal. It's not gonna work.
You're not real.
DREAM DEANNA
Sure I am. I'm you.
DEANNA
I don't think so. 'Cause see, this is my siesta. Not yours.
All I gotta do is snap my fingers and you go bye-bye.
She snaps her fingers once, and nothing happens. She snaps again, noticing nothing's happening. DEANNA snaps them three more times before giving up.
DREAM DEANNA
I'm not going anywhere. Neither are you.
Like I said..
... we need to talk.
I mean, you're going to hell and you won't lift a finger to stop it.
Talk about low self-esteem.
(she chuckles)
Then again, I guess it's not much of a life worth saving, now is it?
DEANNA
(to herself)
Wake up, Deanna. Come on, wake up.
DREAM DEANNA
I mean, after all, you've got nothing outside of Sammy.
You are nothing. You're as mindless and obedient as an attack dog.
DEANNA
That -That's not true.
DREAM DEANNA
No? What are the things that you want? What are the things that you dream? I mean, your car? That's Dad's. Your favorite leather jacket? Dad's. Your music? Dad's. Do you even have an original thought?
DEANNA scoffs, not wanting to admit to anything.
DREAM DEANNA
No. No, all there is is, "Watch out for Sam. Look out for your little sister, girl!" You can still hear your Dad's voice in your head, can't you?
Clear as a bell.
DEANNA
Just shut up.
DREAM DEANNA
I mean, think about it ...
... all he ever did is train you, boss you around.
But Sammy .... Sammy, he doted on. Sammy, he loved.
DEANA
I mean it. I'm getting angry.
DREAM DEANNA
Dad knew who you really were. A good soldier and nothing else. Daddy's blunt little instrument.
(angry)
Your own father didn't care whether you lived or died. Why should you?
DEANNA
(angry)
Son of a bitch!
(screaming angrily)
My father was an obsessed bastard!
All that crap he dumped on me, about protecting Sammy! That was his crap. He's the one who couldn't protect his family. He-
(DEANNA hits DREAM DEANNA)
He's the one who let Mom die.
(She hits her again)
– who wasn't there for Sammy. I always was! He wasn't fair! I didn't deserve what he put on me.
And I don't deserve to go to Hell!
This final one is from Soul Survivor, a season 10 episode when Deanna has recently been turned into a demon. This is her talking to Samantha.
DEANNA:
You notice I tried to get as far away from you as possible? Away from your whining, your complaining. I chose the Queen of Hell over you! Maybe I was just … tired of babysitting you. Or always having to yank your lame ass out of the fire since …
[Deanna laughs.]
Forever. Or maybe … Maybe it was the fact that my mother would still be alive if it wasn’t for you. That your very existence sucked the life out of my life!
