Nessa tried to act casual once she got to the top, banging her knee hard as she hauled herself over the ledge and ripping a fresh hole in her cargos. She took a deep breath, wiped her sweaty hands, and sat down next to Charlotte.  

"'Sup?" said Nessa.  

"Go away." Charlotte kicked her feet against the wall and pressed her waxy lips together.  

"You gonna jump?"  

"No. I'm not an attention seeking whore like you," said Charlotte.  

Nessa shrugged her shoulders, as if that could roll away the sting. Rolling with the punches was what she did. "You look sad."  

Charlotte bared her teeth. "I said, I'm not like you. Leave me alone."  

Nessa wanted to say, "Fuck you," but she didn't. Nessa wanted to find magic words to fix Charlotte in an impatient flurry. She couldn't. Nessa scratched her scars for a while and felt like puking, but she didn't think that would help either. Neither would hitting Charlotte's head against a wall and cracking Charlotte's head into happiness, although Nessa could imagine it so violently and brightly it felt like she'd done it. Nessa had banged her own head against walls to get the pain out of her head and chest, but it never worked -- or rather it never worked for long enough, leading to a worse, moreish pain.