As an actor, your role is pivotal in communicating the character's emotions. I understand that, after reading your note, it can be a bit frustrating to read, but sometimes it’s good to just take an hour break and then afterwards, get back into it. Try to neutralize your emotions when you can. Going into the read, I can tell that there is a bit too much focus on being sad, it's natural to start with a tone of sadness due to the setting, but as you recount the joyful and caring moments shared, allowing those happier memories to influence your tone can add a rich layer of authenticity to your performance.

As you navigate through the script, remember that your emotional spectrum has a profound and direct impact on the audience. Try to embrace the full emotional spectrum that your relationship with Mrs. Nillimore entails. While the sadness of her absence is poignant, the recollection of her kindness and the warmth she brought into your life can bring a nuanced shift in your delivery. Letting a smile creep into your voice as you remember these moments can naturally transition the mood from sorrow to fond remembrance. This not only makes your performance more relatable but also more dynamically engaging.

Additionally, considering the broader context of your relationship with Mrs. Nillimore can significantly guide your emotional delivery. Reflect on what she meant to you beyond her actions—consider her influence on your character, the values she instilled, or the comfort she provided. This deeper connection will help you convey a more rounded portrayal, where each emotion is grounded in genuine personal history.

Incorporating these elements into your reading will not just make your delivery a recitation of facts, but a true homage to her impact on your life. It allows the audience to feel the depth of your bond and the complexity of your grief, making the narrative more compelling and more profoundly moving. Please don't beat yourself up too much; when I'm having a rough day, I step away from the booth and focus on other things. VO will always be here tomorrow, and a force read will always sound force. Remember, this is a process, and you're doing great.