Well, I like reading, so I was immediately interested. I had no idea that someone was starting a literature club. But that's my fault, since I haven't been paying attention to any of the club recruitment advertisements... I only found out because Monika came into my classroom and put the flier on my desk. I was so stupid... I got too nervous and couldn't even look up, so she just walked out... It took me several days just to come here because I was afraid that Monika told everyone how inconsiderate I was, but I decided that was probably irrational.

I'm... a really weird and awkward person. I've accepted that about myself. I just don't know how to... I guess connect with other people. How is it so easy for everyone else? How do you just... make conversation about any arbitrary topic? I can talk for hours about the things that I'm into. Unfortunately, so much that I don't know when to stop. But for anything else... I just have no idea what to say. So... I understand that about myself. I'm just not good with people. I can't help it. So it feels like whenever I'm confronted with a new social situation, I'm either ignored or made fun of... or taken pity on. And... Sayori falls into that third category.

I think... that I've gotten so used to people being weirded out by me... that it feels like anyone who's nice to me is just doing it out of pity. I'm so horrible with people. So it makes me not want to believe that someone can actually like me for who I am. I got so excited when I joined the Literature Club. I thought that it was finally my chance to make friends through my interests. Because... my interests are the only things I know how to talk about. It's all I have going for me. But then... whenever I catch myself getting overly obsessive in front of other people, it feels like I'm making a fool of myself. I hate myself for it. Ultimately, I just want to be treated like a normal person, but how am I supposed to expect that when I can't behave like one? I just... want to learn how to get along with people, and stop ruining things for myself... That's all.