(You're trying to convince your friends that your father's death was suspicious) 

We know grief can rattle people, make them act irrationally and emotionally. Stress, too, has that effect. And I’m nothing if not stressed. But I’m asking you as friends, to please believe me. Suspend your disbelief. Even for a moment.

(You're deciding between revenge and moving on) 

I don’t think I’m strong enough to make that choice. Even if I could decide what would best honor my father, how would I carry it out? Now that I know he was murdered, I’ll never be able to stop thinking about it. I’m not built to let it go.